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Hangin' by a thread

That's my sanity. Hanging there. Trying to keep it together for another couple days. For all my positivity, I'm losing it little by little. Why?? Read on.

Today we got the call as to where to go pick up our moving truck tomorrow. There's about 6 U-Haul places in our mini-metro and county. But no. It's in Normal, IL. That's where the truck is. Close to an hour away. I thought I was going to keel over. After fuming a little, I called them back, they gave us the ok to go get it today, not charging for having it the extra time. So off we went.

Of course the truck is much smaller than we thought it would be. Yes, it's the one I reserved, but their measuring tape and mine are a bit different. We're not at all sure it will go in one trip. Should be interesting. Nothing I can do about it now. I did call the local places to see if anyone had a smaller truck that we could load AS WELL. Like take two moving trucks to our new place/storage. Good times. But no, no truck available. But they CAN take a reservation and then call me back with where I can go pick one up. No thanks. We'll load it til it's full and that'll be that.


And my first princess went to live with someone else today. M's gone now, leaving while I was at the store, very wisely. He took her to stay with David and Ella, friends who love her much and have kept her when we've been gone for weekends and such. But now it'll be longer, and I'm so sad. I didn't think it would get to me like this, but I feel like we're abandoning her, and she's SO attached to me. Never leaves my side, always following from room to room and sleeping right next to me, all cuddled up, every night. For now, it's for the best all around. But I am so sad. It's way more painful than I thought. I just keep crying, and I don't need that right now. I'm supposed to be the rock around here.

I'll miss you, Belle. My little poo. Please be happy with them and don't be sad. Heck, I miss you already.


(August 04...I was SO happy to have my little poo.)

Comments

  1. Oh, Honey. That's all rough stuff! Especially having to be away from Belle for awhile. She'll be fine I am sure and she'll be so happy when you get her home again. HUGS!

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  2. Oh RK - I am sorry that things are too stressful right now. We'll keep praying and hopefully that thread you're hanging by will get stronger and stronger

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  3. You can do this!! You are one of the strongest people I know. This will be over soon and you will be settled and with your little puppy!! Keep your chin up!!
    Love ya!

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  4. Aww I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time!! Sending you a virtual hug. Hang in there!!!

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  5. PS. One of my Grandpa's favorite sayings is "When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot, hang on, and swing! :)

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  6. I'm sorry. This is a lot to deal with all at once. It sounds like you'll be getting her back and I'm happy for that. I'm sure in all you have to do over the next days, it will keep you busy. (wishful thinking on my part?)
    Take care, some day you will look back on this time and realize you were stronger than you thought.

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  7. Hang in there~I'm sorry that things haven't gone so smoothly. Just stay focused on the final outcome. It will all be worth it.

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