Sunday, June 7, 2009

Bit o' break time

I'm going to do what I dread doing. I'm going to pause on this blog for a while. I don't know how long, hopefully not more than a week or so, but I just can't find the time to write about what's on my mind, and really, it's not appropriate to do so since pretty much everyone I know or interact with reads this. (Thanks for reading, by the way. I can't TELL you how much it means.) But that means that I can't be fully open about some things and keep confidences and/or my dignity sometimes.

There are some tough things I need to address at home and with myself. Choices and difficult steps I had hoped I wouldn't have to make again. Nothing's falling apart, but the first little pieces are crumbling, and they're from my foundation.

So there's work to be done, and it cannot wait. All the while, I'll continue being mom to these two cuddly girls of mine. That's where my time goes, and hopefully soon I'll get a little mini vacation of some kind there as well. Not that they're not wonderful, and by all accounts, the easiest two little girls out there. It's just that sometimes a break is a good thing. Time alone is important. I'm not getting any, and it's taking it's toll.

Go enjoy your summers. Splash in a pool for me. Take walks in the evening. And when I get a chance, I'll read your stories about it and live vicariously through you. All you bloggers are a true encouragement every day. I appreciate reading your thoughts and your observations, and I love seeing pics of all those adorable kids.

I'll try to keep up at least pics and bits for the girls' blogs, because that's my documentation for their little lives. I refer to it often to remember what happened when. Someday, I hope to get caught up properly with updates that I've been missing and that I also rely on.

It's not the end of the world, that's what I'm telling myself. But it is just another way I'm disconnecting, and that's hard when I am not at all long on connections right now.

Don't go far. I'll be back.

14 comments:

  1. Remember your "foundation" cannot crumble when it's on the ROCK. Those of us who want to aid as sideline support are available when needed. You've never let a challenge daunt you, and I'm confident you won't start now.
    Love you!!
    MOM

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  2. Will be thinking of you! I'm sure you're not alone in whatever you're going through; at least He from above is always with you.

    God bless!

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  3. Take care, RK, hope you get things worked out, whatever they may be. We'll be waiting. {{hugs}}

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  4. Time to yourself is always, always a good thing. And breaks are good for perspective.

    I'm sorry you're struggling, though. I hope you feel better soon.

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  5. We are all here for you! I dont know what is going on, but I do know what you mean by having NO TIME for you. I am a single mother of four. Mason, 14, Jackson, 10, Coleson, 8 and Melana 23mo. I alos MUST work 40hrs a week to support these kids and I dont get any help at all from the boys father. I do get some help here and there from Melana's dad, but not financially.

    I am here if you need to talk or need somewhere to get away to. I am alone all the time with no adult conversations, other than my blogging, but I still love my life, just as you do.

    It's good to get your feelings out.... so we blog lurkers, dont mind listening or reading.

    my email is luvfor9@gmail.com and I can always give you my number thru private email if you wanna chat with a stranger.
    I'm not really a stranger though since i read your blogs daily. :)

    Thinking of you and hope whatever is bothering you gets better soon. Remember....WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE. You are not alone.

    Rachel

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  6. ps.... i must say....wonderful words from your mom. she sounds just like mine.

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  7. Enjoy your break! We'll be waiting for you when you return!

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  8. Oh RK,

    I hope to hear from you again soon. I look forward to reading your posts and feel so connected to you for these past two and a half years. I will pray that you find strength to address the issues, and comfort from your friends and family. Cause I need ya back on line! :)

    "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?...So do not worry...your heavenly Father knows you need them...But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:25-34 (you should read the whole passage when you have time)

    Your friend, Sandi

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  9. so sorry you're going through a rough spot... we will miss you and your words so please don't be gone long. and drop me a line if you need anything at all friend.

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  10. Having had to close my blog for close to 2 months recently, I can relate. Now that I'm trying to get it back up and going, I'm happy to report many of my followers are still there, waiting patiently for my return.

    So, take all the time you need. We'll be here when you come back. Don't worry about the blog, take care of yourself and I'll keep you in my prayers.

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  11. Hope you find some peace. And come back soon.

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  12. well....i understand. sometimes a break is needing. keep your chin up and i will keep you in my thoughts. take care of yourself and i will await your return!!!

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  13. I think we all need to take those breaks every now and then...enjoy your break and just know we'll all still be here when you get back!

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  14. I like your idea of taking some time off. I hope you are enjoying summer with the kiddies!

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