Friday, January 29, 2010

What is this strange feeling?

I kept thinking something was different today. I was working around the house, refereeing the girls--since their favorite pasttime is fighting and wrestling and swinging at each other (where are the prim little girls I thought I had??)--just generally getting through a day at home. But I felt strange. It wasn't pain. It wasn't discomfort. It wasn't even bad.

But it was unfamiliar.

Let's see. I don't feel tired. I don't feel achy. I don't feel run down. Hmmmm...

Wait! Is this what healthy feels like? Is this what the body is supposed to do when it's fed proper food?

Well, whatta ya know...

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Can you save Mindy?

I don’t post all of these, though I sometimes feel I should, because it is overwhelming how many children need to be adopted and saved.

But Mindy will be transferred on Saturday to an institution where she can no longer be adopted, where most children like her do not survive over a year. She is a HEALTHY little girl in Russia, turning 4, with Down syndrome. She will be sent to a mental institution with very little care or interaction, if any at all. It seems like it’s too late. Today is Thursday.  She has two days left.

Please Grab This Button!

It seems like I have to give up, yet my God is big enough to do anything.  Maybe He will protect her while she is at the institution. Maybe He will take her home to Heaven where she will be able to enjoy perfect love and no fear.  But MAYBE, just maybe, YOU are meant for her.  Maybe SHE is meant for YOU. Maybe YOU are meant to bring her home and love her like crazy.  Maybe it’s YOU that she’s been waiting for.

She has over $3200 in her grant fund already. 

A committed family and an application/fees paid with the agency  is all that is required to hold these children at their baby houses and prevent transfer.

I wish I could speak up and bring her home, but we can’t.  It breaks my heart that I can’t save her myself.  But maybe YOU can.  Can you? Will you?

Contact Reece’s Rainbow, director Andrea Roberts if you can, or for more info.  bamaroberts@comcast.net

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

BrockChick Journey: One week down

The first seven days are done.  (Actually, the first 8 since I’m late.)  I made it through with no cheats, no slips, and complete compliance.  Woo!  And my results for the first week?!?

11 pounds gone

Woo Hoo!  Granted, that won’t happen every week, but it’s a nice jumpstart for sure.

In the last 4 or 5 days I’ve not been hungry and I actually get full with the meals and snacks, so I haven’t felt like I’m missing anything.  Sure, I’d love a big greasy burger (Yes, I’ve said that before, but I love burgers.  Could be part of the problem!) BUT I don’t have to have one.  I’m not sitting around wringing my hands and watching the clock til I can eat again.  In fact, I’ve had to remind myself to eat when it’s time.  For breakfast, I’ve had trouble getting it all in.  I haven’t been able to finish my oatmeal for a few days.  This morning, I hadn’t had it yet and it was time for my apple.  So not having enough food is not a problem.

I went the entire first week with the exact plan, broccoli and chicken, egg whites, oatmeal, apples. Period. No variety or substitutes.  This week, I went shopping and got some other things to throw into the mix and see how I like a bit of choice.  I worry that it will make it more difficult for me, as when it comes to choices and food, I don’t have a great history of making right ones.  But if all the options I have here are good ones, maybe it’ll work.

This week I have 4 kinds of fish to choose from in the freezer, along with chicken, of course.  For veggies, I’ve got spinach (frozen/cooked and fresh), green beans, broccoli, and cauliflower.  Yesterday I had a spinach salad with tuna on it with a few sprays of the practically-no-calorie spray dressing.  It was great, a nice change, and it filled me up.

It makes a big difference to drink the 2 cups of water first. I’ve found that to be a key factor in keeping the satisfied feeling and not getting to the hungry stage between meals.

If I do want something in between, or especially in the evenings, I have a cup of hot chicken broth, sometimes with some Mrs. Dash seasoning so that it’s like a little soup, or I have some hot, fruity herbal tea.  It’s really taken care of any munchie spots I’ve hit.  Amazing, but true.  Maybe it helped that I’ve been sick and maybe I wouldn’t have felt like eating much anyway, but I’ll take it, either way.  I’m just beginning to feel better, so we’ll see how this week goes.

Here’s to week 2.  Anyone wanna get on the bandwagon now that I’ve survived and have some nice results?!?  Anyone?

Wow, it got quiet all the sudden.

Monday, January 25, 2010

When do you blog??

Blog traffic has been way down lately. Not like in the last week, but over the last 3 months or so. I've heard that many bloggers have noticed the same. So here's the question, to those of you still around....

When do you blog (either posting or reading)? Weekdays only, evenings, all day, twice a week, weekends?

I'm curious. Do share. And all you who lurk ("Lurk" sounds negative, but I consider it flattering that you come here, even if you don't comment) pop out for a minute and share with us. (Remember, you just click on "Comments" or "Post a comment" then on the right side you choose "Name/URL" and enter whatever name you'd like to use, then your comment. No URL needed. Give it a try!)

And you other bloggers, what do you think is causing the lighter traffic?? Is it the dreaded Facebook!?!?

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Sweet sleep

After two hard battles to get the girls to sleep last night, they did sleep pretty well, and Mom covered the middle-of-the-night issue with Kinlee, so I got a good (other than the coughing fits) night's sleep.

I have come to the decision that we need to give the girls, and myself, time to truly heal, so we're going to be quarantined, sort of. No school, no kid events, and little people interaction for at least another week. I really want Braska to be able to get better and give her body a chance to really be back to fighting things off as much as her "norm" would be before we send her back to the germ factory.

Here's to healing and spring coming soon!!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Reinforcements

I picked up the Grammyphone this morning, so my mom arrived about 20 minutes ago. M has vanished to his parents' place to try to keep well while Mom attempts to get us some rest. She has a whole bundle of goodies that will increase our immunities and naturally get us better. I'm generally a give-me-a-pill type, but I'm game to try almost anything. Almost.

So for now, the Sweetie Peach and the Sugar Plum are happy to see Grammy. And Mommy is going to retire to the bedroom for some rest.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Miserable, but I can’t even whine!

Today has been a totally different day than the ones previous in this BrocChick journey. I’m totally drained.  Is it because of carb-withdrawal that my body is experiencing?  Is it due to whatever is causing me to cough and be completely voice-less?  Who knows.  The combination sure is making we want to be left alone. Completely alone. Just to rest and sip chicken broth. But that’s not to be.

M’s feeling some better this evening.  Braska is about the same.  Kinlee seems to be getting a bit of a fever, but her hives are improving.  She napped almost 3 hours, thanks to Benadryl, and she seems to be feeling ok.

I had a moment today where I just wanted a big plate of overloaded nachos: thick crispy chips, chicken, guac, tomatoes, beans, salsa, sour cream, lots and lots of cheese…the works.  But I’m ok now.  I think.  We don’t have any of this in the house, and M is gone with the car at present, so I’m safe.

In fairness to Melanie and Julie, who are being faithful, I have to say that M is not following the diet.  He was willing to do so in my presence, to not cause me to fix other food while not being able to eat it.  But honestly, he can’t even manage to eat anything on the diet except for the apple. So this isn’t slamming him, but for the girls’ sake, I had to clarify.  He’s ok with that.

Today Braska missed school, M missed work, I missed MOPS, and tonight I missed Bible study.  This is not my favorite kind of day.  This IS the kind of day that would normally have me at the fridge all day long, just eating from frustration.  But I’ve survived, and for that I’m glad!

Oh, and no details yet, but the numbers are already working in my favor, according to Wii Fit.  More later when there’s more (er… I guess, LESS) to report.

Somebody, preferably someone whose Mii does not balloon to unrecognizable, have some nachos for me tonight, please!!!

1 doc 2 visits 2 days

This morning we took KiKi to the pediatrician due to a very icky and inflamed rash that came up. Seeing her twice in two days is just ridiculous. I have barely seen her that much in the last 6 months!
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It was like this, though I know it’s hard to see, but it was all over her back, front, neck, some on the arms, down into her diaper, but not on her legs. It actually got worse by the time we got to the doctor…nice, since it usually goes away before they can see it.  Hence, taking a picture before we left.

Diagnosis: Hives, deep cough, not strep. Treatment: Benadryl and wait. We don't know what caused it.

Braska's a little better, but still not good. I've got no voice at all today, as the receptionist at the dr office can attest to, and my throat feels like it's quite swollen. M's home from work today also because he's been dizzy for 5+ days now, vertigo, but we don't know why.

And I'm hungry, but oh well. The girls are asleep, so napping beats out eating. Wow. I am making progress!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Full!! (and other important topics)

The good news is that after the 2 cups of water, 2 egg whites (separated post boiling and shelling) and the oatmeal (which I couldn’t quite finish), I couldn’t hardly touch my 1 cup of milk.  So it’s going to have to wait a little bit.  I figure that’s a good sign that I’m filling up on what’s prescribed.  Right??

It’s been a challenging morning, Braska went to bed a little iffy last night and woke up even more iffy.  She quickly melted into a puddle of floppy, fussy, goo, and we just returned from the doctor’s office a bit ago. (More on that on her blog, if you’re interested.)  So of course it was almost 11 am before I even thought about my breakfast.  And it’s a “rule” of the deal to get all the food in; I suppose that’s because it’s not a whole lot to start with. I’ll space it out and get it in somehow.  Maybe I’ll take an apple on the way to get M for lunch, then I can eat the actual lunch after we take him back.  That might work.

Pardon me talking myself through plans while I type…

It frustrates me so much that Braska is sick again.  This is just ridiculous, as far as I’m concerned.  I know alot of you have been through way more and way worse, but for us, this is a whole heck of a lot of sickness…all but about 10 days since Thanksgiving.   It might be the control freak in me, but that is just plain unacceptable!!

So I’m pondering what to do.  Dr. A said this morning there’s nothing we can do.  That she’s working through the viruses and gaining immunity to them, so it’s a necessary process.  I don’t know.  I get that whole immunity building thing, but it’s still frustrating.  Do we have to tackle all of them right now?!?

Maybe I’ll keep her home on “big class” days and let her go on “little class” days, having less exposure since there are only half the kids on those days and more one-on-one work time anyway.  I don’t know.  She loves school so much, I hate to do that to her.  But I know that I will not keep my sanity if we keep running into this junk every other week! Braska has her hands in her mouth A LOT.  We constantly work on it, we remind her and she listens for about 10 seconds, then it’s back in with the fingers.  I know that’s a big strike against us, because it’s impossible for her not to catch everything when she’s touching everything at school and then putting this little cute stubby fingers right back in her mouth. And you know Kinlee’s going to be next…there’s probably no stopping that.

Braska gets her nutrition from Pediasure, it’s a complete package so she should be covered with all vitamins and such.  She also gets a multivitamin, which her nutritionist says is not really necessary unless she doesn’t get all her ounces in each day, but we do it regularly just to be sure.  And the extra vitamin D is good.

In the overall scheme of things, I get that this isn’t life-shattering, but it definitely disturbs the flow of life in our house, so that’s enough to make me a bit grouchy about it.  And when I’m grouchy, I eat…but I can’t.  So I’ll have an extra cup of chicken broth.   That’ll make it all better, I just know it! It probably would be good since I’ve had a sore throat for a couple days and today I have almost no voice at all…unless you’re into the very raspy and strangely low female voice that cuts in and out frequently. 

We’ll make it. Eating broccoli, drinking chicken broth, and resting at home.  Virus be gone!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Chicken broth rocks!

I got my Wii Fit in today--a little yoga (warrior, sun salutation, etc) and some strength (lunges, etc), and some step. The step was a bit more challenging than normal because I was holding a very feisty and unhappy-when-not-attached-to-Mommy 11-month-old. It made it just that much more effective, right?!?

Another day down with no cheating...I'm not even licking my fingers when giving the girls meals, even tearing up pizza for KiKi. That's something. Because I'm horrible about nibbling while I'm feeding them. But nope, I'm all in. Well, I don't know if you can say that just 2 days in, but still. I'm impressed with myself.

I got very hungry today, but I made it. We were very busy with all the aforementioned running around, but tonight I needed something. So--with the docs approval, never fear--I had a cup of hot chicken broth tonight, and it hit the spot. A little something to do with my hands and nice and warm to boot.

It would have been nice if it were crunchy or meaty or sweet or anything really, but it was successful in keeping me from looking for something else. So it did it's job.

Oh, and Cate--Great ideas, the schedule is pretty fixed. Lunch time is not flexible, some days M stays at work, but we try not to do that more than we have to. I have wondered about doing a 1230 lunch, which would be great, but it hasn't been possible yet, and probably won't be. The girls are asleep til we get them up to put them in the car to take M to work, and I can't hardly stand to get them up earlier. They won't eat for a while after they get up anyway. So we'll have to deal for now and figure it out as we go.

And no, this won't be my only blog topic, but it's new and I'm trying to stick with it... so bear with me. I'll probably be doing little updates on Twitter (which is now in the right margin) and spare all you blog readers from the boring blather.

Last notes on Day 1. Welcome Day 2

For Maggie M--Those cattle ranchers should be so darn proud of you!!! :o) Since I'm following the docs orders at this stage, he said no red meat. None. And he encouraged me to make that just part of the new norm as well. We'll see about that. I love a good steak or vegetable beef soup with nice big chunks. (A certain mother-in-law makes a very nice version.) And a big juicy burger with all the fixin's. Yum! But for now, it'll be no beef. I even gave away all the frozen beef that I had so others could enjoy it.

For Mom--No, there will be no deer. Period. Not now, not ever.

As for day 1--I made it. I got it all in. Mostly. The chicken and broccoli were good, some of the best chicken I've made, thankfully.

With a little assistance, I cleared out the pantry and fridge/freezer of everything that is not something we can eat (I kept a little good stuff for M...he's not really 100%, and he doesn't have to be) and not something Kinlee can eat. Otherwise, it's gone. I ended the day not feeling well, though I don't think it was food related. But it was no fun, so I went to bed early.

Mornings are hard, as we get up, get girls up and changed, load everyone in the van and take M to work. Then we come home, unload girls, feed them, get them dressed if we didn't get to do it before the work drop-off, load them up again, and leave (all in less than 30 minutes) to take Braska to school. So by the time I get home after that, it's almost 930 and I haven't eaten yet. I'm not overly hungry, but it throws the whole schedule of the snack in the morning and a decent lunch time.

As a point of reference, work is 12-15 minutes each way (only 3 miles) and school is 9-12 minutes each way (only 2 miles--gotta love the city).

Of course, lunch is another issue. I pick Braska up at noon, then we sometimes come home (having only about 20 minutes before leaving again) or we spend that 20 minutes finding something to do in the car until we have to head over to pick up M for lunch at 1. Then it's home, feed girls if they haven't eaten yet and get Kinlee to nap (if I'm sending the van back with M). Or the girls and M get lunch while I do the feeding for the little ones. Then it's time to load up again and take him back by 2. Then it's home, unload girls, get girls to nap, and then I can eat. Again, not ideal timing.

But it's easy to see there why our eating habits are bad, and they have been forever. We eat on the run ALL the time. We never sit at the table, the girls are in their chairs and I'm feeding them while M is in the living room or downstairs or doing whatever. I eat a bite here and there, or I eat in the car. If I do eat at home, it's standing at the counter or in between feeding one girl or the other.

I realize some of you have conquered these issues of juggling kids and husbands and families and food and even work. My hat's off to you. We've got a long way to go.

For now, it's time to get my oatmeal and egg whites (which I am now eating from boiled eggs...can't do the scrambled). Maybe I'll get time for a shower before I need to go pick up Braska. A girl can dream.

Monday, January 18, 2010

BrocChick-O-Licious

To answer a few questions…

It’s not just for 7 days, but I’m following it exactly as prescribed for 7 days and then we might alter a veggie or two, add a healthy something here or there. But overall, the goal is to make something very close to this my new norm…for quite a while.  It’s going to be a long road.

The important parts according to my doc, who is a fitness/health nut, are to drink the water right before the meal, like all at once.  Then for lunch and dinner to eat the veggies next, then the meat.  The high-fiber broccoli helps me to feel full.  And though I like broccoli, 2 cups is a lot of broccoli!

We’re still doing Wii Fit Plus, but I’ve had a few days off.  Lots of evening activities and by the time I get home and put the kids to bed, I’m in no mood for listening to the little voices talk to me on the Wii.  I’d like to be able to do it in the morning, but scheduling is difficult with work and school drop-offs, etc., and tiny hands interfering.

We’ll see how it goes.  I just baked a bunch of chicken so I’m good for a few days of meals.  I like that part, not much cooking!!  I divided it up in 4 oz pieces and it’s ready to go, about 4 days worth for me and M.  I plan to get some salmon fillets too, they are yummy and come in 4 oz fillets, nice and handy.

This morning I learned I don’t care for egg whites scrambled.  We might do some boiling and I can eat them that way, sans yolks.  I didn’t quite get all the oatmeal down, but without the butter and brown sugar, it sure lacks something!  A little Splenda and cinnamon and it was almost ok.

It’s 2:30p and I just finished my lunch, it’s been one of those days.  Running and picking up, dropping off, feeding kids, etc.  But the 2 cups of broccoli wasn’t bad at all.  And I even ate it straight steamed, no seasoning and no fats added, and it wasn’t bad.  Who knew under all that cheese sauce broccoli was good on its own??  (I kid, I like broccoli almost any way it’s presented.)

I’ve been texting Melanie and Julie much of the day… we’re a good team so far.  Melanie is our champion, having been on this path for 3 years and having some stunning new skin to show for it!  She’s really doing this for the moral support, and because it is not far from her “new norm.”  She’s pushing me and I’m glad for it.  Who would have known after 18 years this is where we’d be, Mel??

So feel free to join in if you’re game.  I’m only 2/3 of a day in, but I’m feeling pretty positive at this point!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

The New Deal. Again.

2 cups water
1 cup oatmeal, plain
2 egg whites
1 cup milk

1 cup water
1 small apple

2 cups water
2 cups broccoli
4 oz lean meat (chicken/fish)

1 cup water
1 small apple

2 cups water
2 cups broccoli
4 oz lean meat (chicken/fish)

If you see me eating anything that is not on this list for the next 7 days, pin me down and make me give it back.

My doctor gave me this diet to get headed in the right direction. Julie, M, and Melanie are with me….anyone else wanna have fun too? 

Maybe fun is not the right word.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Tuesday’s point goes to M

We have a lot of blogs in our family.  Most of you are aware of this.  But the FIRST person to blog, even before the term was well known, was M.  He did a daily picture diary, took a picture every day of something and posted about it.  It was often quite funny, and he grew quite a following among our friends and relatives. 

Then Braska came along.  She jumped in the blogging ring and Daddy fell by the wayside.  He is bitter about this, if truth be told, but he’s come to accept that she has more readers.  Then I started this one, and the blog wars continued. 

We often banter about who has wittier things to say and who has the better following, etc.  I often think I win, just because I actually post occasionally…yeah, honey, that helps.  BUT today…………. he takes the cake.  His post just cracked me up to the point of actually laughing out loud and shedding tears of that laughter. 

Don’t miss this one… it’s a classic.  And if you actually know M and can imagine his overly sarcastic tones as you read, I think you’ll rank it among his best as well. 

Oh, and M, c u l8r 2nite @ hm

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Very long short weekend

Alot of driving. Visits with old friends and new friends. Fun times. A few struggles for composure. Amazed at kids growing up. Heartbroken missing the one who will always be young. Sad smiles watching the girls play. Wishing the prettiest girl in the world could have played with them.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

SD Snow Day

Ha, just noticed that SD could stand for “snow day” but it doesn’t.  Funny.  Maybe only to me after the evening I had.

It was a good day, even though it was bitterly cold and very windy, making for fun driving as we took M to work at his late start time of 10 am today.  It’s nice that the county lets them start late like that sometimes on these rough days.  The whole county government just comes in 2 hours late.  Nice. 

After we dropped him off, since we were out anyway, we headed to “jack-sins-house” where Jack and his siblings were loving the snow day, and Julie and I weren’t sad about it either.  The little kids played and Madelyn, after great prodding, made some yummy bars for us to enjoy. 

We spent the whole day, the whole day, there.  I got it in my head that I was going to make fun ringtones for their new phones, since I figured out how to do it, clipping mp3’s and formatting them so the phone would see them as ringtones.  Some phones are easier to work with than others.  Mine is ok, Madelyn’s is very easy, and Julie’s is downright impossible.  But I was so darn determined to outsmart that thing! 

I realized after I got home how many hours I’d spent on that thing.  I am competitive by nature, to a fault sometimes.  And the fact that I couldn’t figure this thing out, with manual present and with Google at hand… it just drove me crazy.  (Julie…you have to just tell me to get a life and give it up sometimes!)

Though I’m a geek about some of this kind of technology/phone stuff, not everyone is, and I kind of took up the whole day with fiddling with the microSD cards from the phones, reformatting, resetting, and researching on cell phone forums and tip pages.  Julie kept telling me we should just throw it out the window, but I was just too stubborn to let the thing win. 

I finally did give up, threw in the towel, and brought the kids home.  I fumed all the way (it’s 1/2 mile) and it’s been bugging me all night. So maybe I’ll do a little more research before bed.  I kept telling her that if I was this determined in other things, I could have a much better life in some ways.  It’s weird the way my brain works and what it gets stuck on.  Silly, really. Get a grip, RK!

In the midst of all this, which was really just trying to get a 16-second clip loaded as Julie’s ringtone, we did have a good time hanging out…at least I did.  Next snow day we’ll be sure to put our feet up and relax with a silly movie or something more peaceful.  If nothing else, Madelyn has a ringtone that makes her all giddy with happy smiles and excited to make people call her to hear it.  That’s cool.

There’s something very neat about spending the day, kids in the PJs, us doing “nothing,” hanging out a friend’s house just because.  Even with the phone/SD card battle, I count it a pretty good day.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Wii Fit: Day 5

I just finished a quick 25 minutes on the Wii Fit while the girls were asleep.  Did a little Basic Step, Advanced Step, Rhythm Boxing, along with a few other little ones.  Hit a few high scores, which always helps.  Burned 156 calories.  I’ll do more tonight when I’ve got assistance with the girls.  I hear Braska doing her post-nap moan, so she’s waking up now.

The only trouble I’m running into so far is that the response time on the board is not always right on, and I like the rhythm games. This does not make a good mix.  It’s hard to be rhythmic when in order to score well you have to be just OFF rhythm.  Very frustrating.  And I kind of wish you could turn off the competitive elements sometimes, the scores and all the tips on how to score better.  Just makes me nuts when it won’t cooperate with good response time.  I’m doing it but you’re not seeing me to it!  I can stand still and you still register that I’ve done something!!!   It seems to be worse on some games than on others.  M thinks I’m crazy for letting it get to me, but it’s not relaxing and fun to workout like that when it keeps telling me that this or that game is not my “forte.”  Not cool, Wii.

And really…does my Mii NEED to blow up like a balloon every time it does my daily body test?  Does that help anyone get motivated?!?

But overall, in 5 days, I’m liking it.  We’re enjoying doing it each evening together, and I think it’ll be something we can stick with for a while.  While I won’t discuss details and numbers, let’s just say that it’s been all negative (in the positive way) so far. 

If you have particular questions or tips that you like, throw them out here…let’s discuss our Wii Fit experiences.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Wee We With Wii

AKA Little Us (That’s the goal)

There’s alot I need to blog, but I’ve not found time to get to posting, and that is frustrating to me. I did manage to get a couple of quick backgrounds up for Braska and here, if you want to check those out. (Can’t be leaving Christmas up too long…Jessi, we can update Evan too, if you want.)

BUT some of my time has been consumed by our new toy/workout tool. For Christmas, we got a Wii and Wii Fit Plus from family and both M and I have been using it for two days and are enjoying getting to know how it works and what it offers.

So though we didn’t make resolutions or anything, we’re doing something fun and a tad bit health-like. It’s a start.

I’m off to bed. Yoga and basic step wore me out tonight.